If you follow me on Instagram or Facebook you’ll know what a significant week last week was for me.
It marked my 3 year anniversary of “not getting drunk” aka escaping into alcohol.
The actual 3 year anniversary passed me by and it wasn’t until 2 days later that I noticed the date. What is even more amazing and gratifying is that I didn’t notice the date because, well, I was just too busy living my life. I was on my way to a conference, packing up and getting ready to move back to Mexico (after an epic 24 hour journey, we arrived yesterday), spending last weekend in Vancouver with friends and family, and of course, coaching my amazing clients.
THAT is my life now. I don’t really need to sit around and count days or even years.
What matters to me is the QUALITY of life that I’m living and what has happened since I decided to stop numbing myself and escaping into alcohol.
Over the past 3 years I have learned what it means to become fully alive.
I have learned what true presence feels like.
I have experienced searing pain and had to confront the deepest darkest bits of myself that were conveniently hiding behind alcohol, yes.
But allowing myself to feel those lows has also opened me up to feel the most gratifying highs, to know joy like never before, and to finally be able to see myself fully and wholly and to learn to love myself.
Not getting drunk or numbing out has allowed myself to feel everything in exquisite detail. Interestingly, I enjoy that feeling so much more now that when I feel myself slipping into the slightly blurred beginning stages of intoxication.
As I looked around the room at this conference of 200+ female entrepreneurs, I was overcome with emotion.
I remember 5 years ago I won a scholarship to a similar event in New York City. I flew myself from Cambodia to New York City, excited about the possibilities of creating a new life for myself, and yet I felt like a fraud.
I had no idea what I was doing there and felt so far away from achieving the kind of confidence and clarity of purpose and passion that I saw in the room. I actually left each day alone… and went back to my rented apartment and cried. I didn’t really make new friends… I had no idea how to even introduce myself.
What I did do was fly back to Cambodia, where I gave my notice to the international organization for whom I was working, packed my bags, and then I flew myself back across the world to Mexico, ditching my sleeping pill dependency in the process… all with the seemingly simple idea that I was going to “get healthy” and start an online business.
I didn’t know what my life was going to look like.
I was scared.
But I learned (and have learned repeatedly) that leaning into that fear and that unknown is absolutely necessary for growth.
Many, many online courses, masterminds, coaching programs, certifications later, here I am.
Most importantly, of course, was the inner journey and what I learned along the way.
THAT is what allowed me to stand in front of 200+ people a few days ago and share parts of my story that I’ve never spoken allowed.
THAT is what allowed me to get up, stone cold sober, and sing karaoke on Thursday night even though singing in public is one of my greatest fears… way bigger than public speaking.
THAT is what allowed me to step into and through my fear, conquering another phobia by literally breaking an arrow while walking directly into it pressed against the softest part of my neck (you can see the video here).
I know that making changes can be scary for you too. THAT is why I want to be able to support you in any way I can. THAT is why I “do what I do.”
To celebrate 3 years of not getting drunk, and to share the key lessons and strategies I’ve learned along the way so that you can feel supported as well, I would love to invite you to a special webinar this Thursday September 29th at 3pm PST/6pm EST.
Here is the call in info:
Join from PC, Mac, Linux, iOS or Android: https://zoom.us/j/3058027632
Or iPhone one-tap (US Toll): +14086380968,3058027632# or +16465588656,3058027632#
Or Telephone:
Dial: +1 408 638 0968 (US Toll) or +1 646 558 8656 (US Toll)
Meeting ID: 305 802 7632
International numbers available: https://zoom.us/zoomconference?m=_zgM8IPo0fy_cOPizbxNWr_A_kJ_vJxZ
I will send another email in a couple of days but if you’re interested, make sure to go ahead and schedule it in your calendar because I won’t be sending a million reminders 😉 There will be a recording if you can’t make it live – though being live will give you the opportunity to ask me anything you’d like!
Looking forward to celebrating and connecting with you!
xoxo
